Attack

My blog is titled "WARRIOR" but the truth is lately, I've been running for cover. OK, it's taken me a while, but now I realize--I've been under attack. Yes, every day we're under attack. Satan sees us in our commitment and progression toward God and wants to do everything he can to undermine what God is trying to do through us. When all of me is emptied out and willing to be used by God, Satan starts working overtime. I've realized recently that things have been bad, but didn't realize just how this all began snowballing until talking with a friend this morning. I look at all the things happening in my life in the last few months and it all started when I set myself aside and prayed and fasted for someone I love. Then everything snowballed. It never happens overnight, but little by little. It started with stress at work, then progressed to missing fellowship at church by being out of town for several weekends. Then I started having health issues, which has progressed to dissention in my marriage due to all of the above. The list goes on and on. I felt like I was on a downward spiral. But today, God spoke to me through a friend who gave me insight and clarifiation. I feel freedom again...and it's sweet.

Where?

Where is God in the midst of everything going on? Financial markets are failing, people are losing their jobs, friends are sick, etc, etc, etc. It's been a while since I've blogged. Fact is, I've been preoccupied. Why? My life revolves around everything negative going on in the world right now. I see it every day. I deal with it every day. I don't want to watch the news. I'm tired. Wounded. This is exactly where Satan would like for me to be, but the truth is Satan is the accuser. And Jesus is my defender. Because of HIS sacrifice, God can look upon me as a clean vessel ready to be used. And that's all I have to be--ready and willing. Truth is, I've not been very willing lately. I've just been trying to survive, and that's not where God wants us to be. There is so much more than just survival mode. All of this JUNK has gotten me sidetracked and now I'm on my way back on the narrow way. I had a college professor explain our walk with God like this. Draw a straight line and then draw a wavy line right on top of it. When we first start following God, the curvy line swings back and forth in a big way off track, and then as we progress in our walk, the times off track don't get quite so far away. Where is God? He is sovereign and right where he's always been. I'm the one who has been away, panicked and worried--nowhere near to where his plan for me is. God is God and I am not. His ways are much, much bigger than my ways. God is my rock and my savior and he's in my heart. That's where he is.